Dear baba you know what happened on 20th oct. How long will I keep begging him. I know it’s all my mistake, that I made the heart that once loved me so much, hate me. Its my fault. I accept it. But how long do I keep suffering for my mistake? I can’t get him out of my mind. It feels as though my life revolves around him . It feels as if my life is stuck without him. I absolutely have no idea how many days he cried about me to God. But it’s apparent that he sees me as nobody today. The anger in his voice. The disinterest. The indifference. Please god. It’s beyond painful. How long do I keep suffering like this ? I would really want to pray”just give him back to me ” . But now..what’s the point? On asking if he doesn’t like talking to me ? He replied yes. What more do I want? How much more insult do I need to face to completely. Completely let him go ? How long do you plan to punish me . If it’s going to be like this forever, just give him back . That’s it. I said it. Or. If he hates me so much and has moved on and has absolutely no interest in talking to me , please make me also just like him. Haven’t I endured enough? This energy just doesnt leave me. It’s something else. It’s crushing me. Please put an end to this . I don’t want to love him anymore. Please god . I don’t want to hurt anymore. I love him so much. But I don’t want to.. please help me let him go. ? Is there an end to this ? Please show me your presence. Please help me . Please erase him completely off my mind.
