Shirdi Sai Prayers From Anonymous Sai Devotee from UK: I am a 52 years old mother of a 29 years old daughter who is my only child. I live in London and also work.I have been a Sai devotee for pats 27 years. I feel that I could be a better person and mother.
I want to ask Baba to forgive me for knowingly and unknowingly I have made my daughter constantly feel inadequate. I was always asking her what she was doing, whom she was with? what time she be home etc like a paranoid parent. I have knocked her confidence and filled her life with sorrow and low esteem. I believe the reason I done this is because my husband was always filling me with negative comments about her for example she is our only child, I should watch her that she does not do things like go out much, should study hard etc. I was and still am afraid of him and I just followed what he said. He is always controlling us and indirectly bullying us and I am stupid for letting him. Please give me strength. Even with marriage he is so much restricting her. He mentally filled us both with fear. But as the mother I should be more brave and support my daughter.
I pray with my whole heart that I can change and become more stronger and help my daughter move on in life and become settled and I ask for forgiveness from my daughters pure soul for the mistakes I have made. I promise not to repeat them. She is a pure soul with good heart and every day I feel bad for what I have made her become. But still she is good to me and I do not deserve her love. God Bless her. She is 29 now and I ask you all to pray for a good life partner for her, a better job and good health mentally and physically. I also would like your prayers for me to give forgiveness and to be a better parent. I hate myself for my behaviour. Dear Baba please forgive me, help my daughter to become settled. Show us both a miracle now. It’s been 7 years now for her with no change in her circumstances. Please help. Show me how to surrender and leave everything to You. I am always overthinking. I want to leave it to You now. Please take over. You are in control. I hope to have my prayers answered now. Please don’t let us down. God Bless us all. Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai
May He shower His Grace on you and yours.
Jai Sairam
Sharma
Don't worry mother, every parent is possessive towards their children and even I took advantage of my mom 's confidence on me and cheated her in my young age but I came to know that feelings , possessiveness after I became mother . Luckily baba gave me a wonderful husband ( ours is love cum arranged marriage, I gave lot of pain to my parents in this process but after my marriage they are very happy with my husband and they use to tell baba itself send this son in law to them) ….even though I have positive outcome, my heart aches for the activities I did towards my parents, at that time I didn't understand their feelings.every time I was begging baba for forgiveness. I have fear towards my daughters (4 yrs and 2 yrs old) about the happenings in future. I am little bit confused whether to be possessive or should give freedom in all aspects. I leave everything to baba , he will take care of my kids.
I pray for you and your daughter. Om Sai Ram
Sai Ram
SAI…SAI…
OM SAI RAM he will make your worries go away your daughter will get married to a good person