Shirdi Sai Prayers From Anonymous Sai Devotee from UK: I am a 52 years old mother of a 29 years old daughter who is my only child. I live in London and also work.I have been a Sai devotee for pats 27 years. I feel that I could be a better person and mother.
I want to ask Baba to forgive me for knowingly and unknowingly I have made my daughter constantly feel inadequate. I was always asking her what she was doing, whom she was with? what time she be home etc like a paranoid parent. I have knocked her confidence and filled her life with sorrow and low esteem. I believe the reason I done this is because my husband was always filling me with negative comments about her for example she is our only child, I should watch her that she does not do things like go out much, should study hard etc. I was and still am afraid of him and I just followed what he said. He is always controlling us and indirectly bullying us and I am stupid for letting him. Please give me strength. Even with marriage he is so much restricting her. He mentally filled us both with fear. But as the mother I should be more brave and support my daughter.
I pray with my whole heart that I can change and become more stronger and help my daughter move on in life and become settled and I ask for forgiveness from my daughters pure soul for the mistakes I have made. I promise not to repeat them. She is a pure soul with good heart and every day I feel bad for what I have made her become. But still she is good to me and I do not deserve her love. God Bless her. She is 29 now and I ask you all to pray for a good life partner for her, a better job and good health mentally and physically. I also would like your prayers for me to give forgiveness and to be a better parent. I hate myself for my behaviour. Dear Baba please forgive me, help my daughter to become settled. Show us both a miracle now. It’s been 7 years now for her with no change in her circumstances. Please help. Show me how to surrender and leave everything to You. I am always overthinking. I want to leave it to You now. Please take over. You are in control. I hope to have my prayers answered now. Please don’t let us down. God Bless us all. Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai