Shirdi Sai Prayers From Sai Devotee Varsha from India:
Baba is my mother and father.
Hello, I am Varsha. I am 22 years old and I finished BDS (dentist). Sai Baba is my best friend Who guides me in good path always. I became Sai Baba devote when I was 17 and now Baba is not only my Guru but also my Mother, Father, Well-Wisher, my Teacher and my Best Friend. Whenever I want to do something I ask Baba and He says yes or no. I always listen to Him and still listening to Him. My college, my career all had been chosen by Baba and those choices have always been good for my life. But for past few years I am suffering from severe depression and I know I need psychological help. But I cannot talk about this to my parents because they will never understand me and scold me for everything. I’m the eldest child and I have a brother who is 18. He never gets scolding or restrictions from my parents and he is happy. I am not jealous of my brother. I am really happy for him, at least he is happy and have freedom in his life. But for me, from what dress I should wear till what should I do or eat, everything is decided by my parents. They never ask my opinion and urge me to follow what they say. But even now I agree with them and follow what they say even if I don’t like it. I respect them.
Baba knows how much I love my parents and how much I have sacrificed for them. But they never seem to understand. Due to corona my process for studying abroad is at halt and in a question now. That itself is depressing me already and my parents say bad things about me and say that I am a negative person and never talk to me or ask me how am I suffering. I easily get good name and encouragements from other people like my school teachers, college professors and relatives and they all appreciate my art and craft works and they say I’m obedient and intelligent. But those appreciations never make me happy because when I come home all I hear is discouragements, teasing and scoldings.
My parents say that I am useless and have no knowledge. I have lived my past 22 years according to their wish and rules but have never disrespected them. Still they always discourage and scold me. I feel like I am stuck in a cage of worms. I want to stay healthy and fit, so if I want to take a diet or change my food my parents make fun of me and scold me for doing foolish things. They say me no to gym and no to any other treatment. I am tall and this one time when treating a patient I got back pain and still not able to get over with it. I have been telling my parents about this back pain and my mom doesn’t even care about it and scolds me for that also. I want to take care of my physical and mental health but I have no access or permission to do it. I have no one to talk about how I am suffering. My only hope and faith in my life is our Sai Baba. Every night I cry to the Baba’s statue that I have near my bed and hug Baba and sleep because He is my Mother, Father and my Friend. Please pray for me to get out of this situation. I feel like I might end up my life and go to Baba because I am not able to handle this psychological stress.