Shirdi Sai Prayers From Anonymous Sai Devotee from India: Sai Baba’s daughter needs blessings, suggestions and guidance from fellow readers to come out stronger from a difficult phase. I am writing this in a blind hope that I get blessings from Baba through the readers of this blog. Baba please be my strength and help me fight all odds like You always have.
Dear all, I am a strong devotee of Baba and came across this blog a couple of weeks ago as I am going through a very difficult probably the worst phase of my life. Needless to say, reading Baba’s miracles and leelas has been extremely instrumental in giving me a ray of hope in these turbulent times. But still sometimes I lose hope and start questioning myself whether or not I will survive and will come out of this phase. I used to consider myself God’s favourite child because despite having a difficult life, I always felt He was there to help me in some or other form. I am a sensitive and emotional person who always puts others before herself and am ready to do anything to bring a smile on people’s face. Never in my life have I humiliated on run anyone down or treated people badly. But despite been called a good soul, I am going through a lot since last 10 years. I have been very good in academics and had a good education and still could not get a job. Whenever I wanted to join a company, some impediment would come in my way and did not get those jobs. This happened with me a couple of times. Despite qualifying every round the end result always turned out to be against me. I only ended up comforting myself that may be those jobs were not in my destiny.
Last year, I did a small stint at a company. When I joined I had big dreams in my eyes and hopes. But all changed in a month and everything just turned out to be against me. Despite doing everything right and never treating anyone badly, people in my workplace used to bully and humiliate me every now and then. But even this did not deter me and I continued. But as I was not adequately paid and my sincerity towards work was taken for granted, I decided to quit.
Once I quit I faced even more problems both at professional and personal level. Within a span of a couple of months an optimistic person who loved life to the core started contemplating giving upon it. I was not new to struggle and always kept strong but this time I could see everything just going down like a stack of cards. Everytime I look for answers on this site, the one sign that I get quite often from Baba is that it is past births’ karma. In this lifetime I have not caused this pain and suffering to anyone. Then why am I suffering so much as my health is deteriorating with each passing day. I sometimes feel I am no longer the same person I used to be as I have not seen my smile in last 6 months and am only crying. What is it that I can do to alleviate my sufferings and the anxiety that I have developed? I want to enjoy life like I used to, make my family happy and they too are suffering because they can not see me like this. I love Sai Baba immensely and am praying to Him to keep me strong like He always did but sometimes I too become weak and feel like giving up. But even in those times a part of me wants to hold on and wants to come out stronger by fighting against all odds. If possible do pray for me and let me know what can I do to bring my passion for life back. Thank You. Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai.
One of my favourite sayings is "don't tell God how big your problem is, tell the problem how big your God is." You've said it yourself, past karma and once you surrender to His feet, that too will burn away, maybe in a little while. Hold on to Him.
May He bless you and yours with peace and happiness.
Thank you for your kind words and wishes.😊
Will pray for your troubles to vanish; Sometimes we cannot understand what is happening; Please Baba, bless this devotee of yours and make her troubles disappear
True its difficult to understand his leela. Thank you so much for your payers.😊
May u find your strength in Baba Sai. Om Sai Ram ❤
Om Sai Ram! May God help you to come out of this. keep your faith strong come what may.
Thank you for replying. Means a lot to me.
Now my faith is shaking because I never asked him for anything. But now things are getting worse and I am still waiting for Saibabas miracle.
Do not think you are alone. I am also going through the same phase. Believe in him and surrender to Baba. This is what we can do, rest is in his hands.
Thank you for replying.😊
It feels bad to know that many people are going through the same experience.
Totally agree with you that we have nothing in our hands. Only he can guide us.
Don't worry your troubles will go away, you came to this site it's a sign that your life is about to change, I came to this site like a year ago and beengoing through hell for like 15 years family health studies employmenta nd so many other things and no one to talk to, I m just like you think of othersbefore and what they is use me but it's ok at leastI know I'm doing good one thing from past 1 year I'm more stron emotionally and much more hopeful than before, still struggling a lot even have to fight with my family to study and even to worship Sai but I know I'll come out of this so soon in a yearyour life is going to change so don't worry just hold on you are getting there
Thank you for writing dear.
I wrote this in July thinking that my situation will change soon now that I have visited Shirdi and have done every Sai pooja and parayana.
But its december now and things are only getting bad now. I dont know for how long I will be able to survive like this.
I am Sai devotee since past 7 years. But never asked for anything. I dont know when my life will change.
I too dont have a career, not getting the desired life partner and am getting older. Health is deteriorating and have become fed up of living like this.
It'll take time but we will come out of it please don't quit please if you want to talk mail me ds161851@Gmail.com Om Sai Ram
I have sent you a mail yesterday. Om Sairam